Never again
I let my slut get away this last thursday. We had had a bad morning with a lot of irritation, and in the evening it got worse. She was unhappy, depressed and lost and I tried to be a respectful partner (the bad Swedish male cut-my-own-dick-off way).
What I should have done - I should not have let it and her get that far. When she was bitching about hours on end, I should have stopped her, said “Enough, woman!”, bitch slapped her and taken her to bed. The more she and I bitched, the more unhappy and lost and far away from each other we got.
We had a really lousy friday and an intense saturday where we talked it through: she felt unhappy, lost and confused when I didn’t stop her and I hate it when she gets away. We decided to take our 24/7 relation further, we also understood that her getting away was a sign of fear for the urges she has to submit - she just doesn’t know what to do without me. And I am totally lost without her.
So we decided the following:
- She will try harder not to be scared by her urges. Instead she will embrace them to the full and submit even more to me.
- She has the right to be in whatever way she is at the moment, but she must also be prepared that I will react and act on her behaviour. Sometimes with force.
- I will no more out of respect for her or me let it get this far again. We agreed that out of respect for our relation I will take more responsibility to stop her when things get out of hand.
- We will not be afraid of symbiosis (as I have been my whole life). On the contrary, we will seek more of it!
She is really content now, as am I.
I love her!
